Filthy boys and blonde girls!

Let's start this off by saying i am addicted to the new Grinderman album, the song palaces of Montezuma literally makes me fall off my chair and writhe around on the floor, my hips jerking and rising! It is currently the soundtrack to my depression.....
Saying that, it makes me feel alive, concentrated and a sort of dirty anger that makes me feel great!
There are a few men that really get me, you know the one's you would if the chance came about! lol i will list; Brian Molko, have done since about 12, spent most of my youth trying to look like him lol Nick Cave, cause he is masculine and i feel a bit awkward and deep, i like deep. Jonathan Rhys Myers, Velvet Goldmine is one of my favourite films and where i fell for the sultry eyed muthafucker! i like men who are men, i like strange facial hair, older men, the suit...oh a suit does it all for me! Thing is i also love faggoty men such as Brian, i love boys in dresses, whether they be acting like a lady or not! I've like trannies for a long time but a effeminate boy really has me hooked!
I like Girls too, i was in love with Sharleen Spitteri when i was about 15 - 16...i had a big poster of her i used to kiss....*shame* i like innocence, i like blondes, thin preferable, between 18 - 30, kooky like me and with a good heart. I don't really fancy famous women any more, they are unattainable and well i prefer someone i can corrupt lol
Can't you imagine Nick Cave looming over you, the dirty bedsheets, the stench of cigarette smoke and sweat, him pulling you down onto him, grabbing a fistful of hair as he....ohhhhhhh......lol

I like dirty, if you hadn't of gathered! I love sleaze, dirty sex shops, filthy perverts and sweaty, heady night of drugs and sex, latex optional! I am attracted to the filthier side of sex, the real, hot sex. I hate all this fucking in beds....i remember the days of a living room with a matress and a orgy going on, the hands moving over you, biting your nipple...its all rather sordid but you know snorting lines of some random slut's arse is fucking fantastic!

I either want to be in control or out of control....i do not wish to be controlled. I want to be used like a whore, but in the morning brought a cup of tea and a paracetamol!

Sex is a dangerous tool, ive used it to my advantage and well disadvantage...i've had some amazing experiences and some downright miserable times all down to my fanny! I've sold it, poked it, hurt it, enjoyed it and loved it! sex can be used to humiliate, entice, greed and love. your choice which one.....

right, im off for a bath, have a think......xxx