emptyiness is proving troublesome....

Right we all know i have depression etc. Thing is although i recognise the train of thoughts i am having, i dont feel right, like its something new and im being very wary of it.
Deep inside my heart is broken and i know i can only start the healing when the funeral is over.
Going ot be a hard couple of weeks i think. today was sooo boring, i fell asleep twice lol ive got nothing to do, i think of stuff but then can't be bothered.
So fed up of being fed up! lol
tbh i'll keep this one short, just wanted to show you the cards i am making ot put with my grandad once he has been cremated and is set for his burial in Drayton.
Hope you may find some comfort in the words, as much as i do xxxx