drugs....they are bad....

I take drugs, all sorts, in my time i've prolly popped well over a 1000 pills, snorted through at least a few kilos of coke, stuck research chems in me, taken funny looking liquids, I've even done heroin.

I love drugs. I always have and always will i think. I enjoy the rush, the excitement, the love oh and dancing! I've only ever been into alcohol once in the same way, i was necking 2 litres of vodka a day, this was only cause i wasn't using drugs. The most damage I've done to myself was a bout of a year of drinking like a fish, drinking till i passed out, drinking till i pissed the bed...i was a mess.
Now I've done excess in drugs, ive taken so many i couldn't stand, move or talk. I've k holed with the best of them, puked in a shoe and fell over. you know what i wouldn't take back those memories for no one, the drink, the slagginess that comes with it, forget it, its something i truly regret and wish to never repeat, hence why i am drink free. that's right i am a tee-teetotaller. I cannot stand drink, i hate the smell, the behaviour whilst drunk, every aspect of it is shit. Now you may think about that with drugs, i suspect some of you are massive prudes about drugs and that's fine but remember how much damage is done by drink and how much is done by drugs...think how many die each year due to drink and ho many die due to drugs? too many is the answer and handful of deaths that are drug related.

I smoke weed every day, in fact i am trying ot cut out real cigs to just become a pot head. I am hating smoking tobacco it makes me feel icky now and i used to love smoking! So eventually i will be nicotine free! I love weed, it makes me creative, calm and more at ease with the world. It almost completely stops my anxiety issues and eradicates my self loathing. Now you tell me that isn't a positive thing?
Now i have done psychological damage with drugs as well as a bit of nerve damage. I will admit to that but that is my own fault and most of the damage was during the excess years. So yes i take a lot of medication to put right what damage life and drugs has done. I lived a hedonistic and selfish lifestyle for many years and i paid for that choice, in more ways than one.
Still drug fuelled sessions are remembered, random acts, a lot of love and care and friendships that have stood the test of time, all down to a mutual love of drugs.

Myself, i love my highs, i never got the downers. I much prefer ot be energetic, bouncing around, dancing and general feelings of complete joy. I've experienced mind blowing effects thanks to drugs. I've seen things that are way more interesting thanks to not having beer goggles on. I've spoken to gods, visited cartoon worlds, slipped through wormholes and always, always made it back so far!
I love being happy, drugs create happiness in me, gives me the boost i need, the confidence i so desperately crave.

I've had problems with drugs meaning i became an addict. My great weakness is the dirty seductress, cocaine. I love coke, i can do it at any time of day and it fits into life really well. It's social, its fun and most of addictive. I became addicted to coke at about 18, i met a man in a club he gave me loads of coke and took me to his where i pretty much stayed for the next 2 weeks, off my face and slowly losing it. He began 'lending' me out to his friends, this was of course payment for my coke. i cleaned up after a few months and didn't take any for a few years. Then at 20 i became an escort, i had a lot of cash. i met a client who was a dealer and that was that, i was back on the coke. again the white had taken over. Coke is a dangerous drug, its highly unlikely to die from it but will cause so much untold damage. I still love it but i only have it on special occasions and if the situation arises. i rarely buy it cause i know how easy it is to fall under her spell. At my height of cocaine taking i was buying a half ounce every 3 days, i bought a bag of 100 pills on a friday which lasted till monday. Yeah i took a lot of drugs....

Now i don't push drugs and i always tell them about the bad sides, but i do tell them about the good sides. I will never force someone to take drugs, never.

Now for a few rules;
* drugs are bad
* do not push drugs, if someone says no it means it
* don't sell anything for drugs, including your body
* be prepared, it could always go wrong so take precautions
* Tell someone what you are taking, how much etc again just incase something happens
* Do not mix drugs and drink, its a recipe for disaster
* Don't chase the high, accept what you got and enjoy it. Chasing your first high will never result ot anything but addiction and problems.
* don't lose it - losing it and unable ot control who you are is dangerous. keep an eye on your behaviour on drugs and try and adjust where you can.
* Stay calm - the likelihood as much as you think your dying, your prolly not. Take a chill pill and relax, get a drink of water and if you can something to eat and rest.
* Wear something comfortable
* drugs make you forgetful so don't try and cook yourself a big meal it will end in a burnt out kitchen
* drink water - it hydrates you and also gives you a little bit of focus
* do it with friends - don't do drugs on your own its a bad idea, take it with friends and if possible have one friend who is staying sober in case owt goes wrong.
* think happy
* if your on medication, it may be worth just checking on the net about the medication and any reactions noted when taking illegal substances.
*be safe and be sensible!

Drugs are not the be all and end all of a party but its a friendly one when people are on drugs!
I am willing to talk to anyone who wants to know about drugs, there effects etc I am a hardcore drug taker and have come across most stuff and always willing ot try more!


Good Times! xxx

Tell me that's not a happy man?